Wednesday, June 25, 2008
One of my major fears has always been crowds. I've never been to a concert in my life. When a place is crowded; I avoided them like Nicole Ritchie avoids food. Well Sunday I went to a Dodgers game. I sat in the field level, which was crowded. I didn't leave; I didn't get uncomfortable; I didn't get nervous.
Then yesterday, I had a luncheon with a lady about possibly working for me in the future. Normally, I avoid eye contact; I mumble incoherently and stutter like a mad man. But I actually did good. I felt in control and confident.
I also ended up at another Dodger's game again last night. That is two games in a public place in three days. That is a huge step for somebody with my affliction.
On a side note, I have an opportunity to join the organization The Toastmasters. They are a group of people that help overcome shyness. There is one here in Long Beach that meets at 7am on Wednesdays. I got in touch with the director and he told me to come by. I want too, but I just can't seem to kick myself out the door to go.